I remember vividly the day I took this photo. I was at Oz Park in Chicago and at a big turning point in my life. Mike and I had put into motion our move to the country. We had planted a beautiful seed of manifestation, but I was feeling a bit discouraged and afraid. I felt apprehensive because we weren’t seeing immediate results, and I felt scared because what if we did?! With a move, I knew this meant I would be leaving my sister in Chicago. She is such a huge part of my heart and we shared eight awesome years in the city, five of which we lived together, some of the best times of my life! And I also knew I would be disappointing my work family. They were my ticket to Chicago, and I am forever grateful. But there was a stirring in my heart bigger and I could no longer ignore it. So I went to the park seeking clarity. While relaxing under a tree, I looked up and saw the Angel cloud. Loud and clear I felt in my heart: Don’t give up five minutes before the miracle happens. Yes, this made total sense! I needed to hold on to my dreams! After all, moving to the country with the man I love was what I wanted very much. I felt reassured my future was safe. I just had to trust the other things would work out. And indeed they did. Even though I miss living near my sister, I know she is very happy with her own sweet family. Work worked out perfectly too. And indeed, my future is safe, as Mike and I are growing happier every day on The Farm with our really awesome animals. Thank you Spirit for showing me it is safe for me to trust in my own heart’s desires. I believe we are all worthy of this knowing.
Our animals teach us so much. With the closing of the year and in light of the millennia, we wanted to share Geronimo’s message: little steps are good, until we are ready to take the big ones. This is a significant life lesson for me, and for others I imagine, because we often don’t want to move until we can leap real big. Looking back on all Geronimo’s little steps has helped us understand the remarkable progress that can be made, one baby step at a time. To help you understand the place where this pony was coming from, think of something that brings so much discomfort and fear into your heart that you feel as if you want to jump out of your own skin and run away. This is how Geronimo felt with every human touch, loud noise or fast movement when he arrived on The Farm on June 10. Today, his entire body can be touched and he loves going on our walks around the grounds. The fast movement and loud noises still concern him sometimes, but instead of wanting to bolt he looks to us for comfort. He trusts us as much as he trusts himself. On a daily basis, Geronimo reminds us of the importance of releasing fear and self-doubt, to stay measured and take little steps until we can step bigger and to trust in those around us and in Spirit. And to realize that this kind of work is difficult, so be proud of the progress we are making, he definitely is. Just look at that big-bold-open-hearted stride of his now! Indeed, his heart is running free. Go ahead, follow in his footsteps, we are!!! :)))
In the fall of 2011, following my heart I left the city and moved to the country with my dashing man, our dog, cat and fish. We are having an absolute ball learning different ways of becoming self-sustaining, as well as, sharing our farm with a menagerie of loved-ones ;)