Moving to The Farm has been our Saving Grace. We have created a very loving and safe space for us to release things that no longer serve us. The shifts for both of us have been big, even ugly at times, but so very worthy of the freedom that comes with letting go. I’m talking about those things where the same kind of hurt seems to keep coming back around, again and again. Whether it is a new situation or something from the past, it all seems to hit hard in the same spot deep in my heart. The pain feels so big I am unable to comprehend anything beyond my own hurt feelings. Sometimes when I am feeling like this I would turn to anger. When this kind of fear is spewing out of me our animals literally run the other way. They will not mask and or take something that does not feel good to them. They remove themselves from the situation. A ringing in my ear and a ping in my heart tells me: I can do this too. I don’t have to hurt either. I just have to be willing to let go of the thing that is hurting me. The lyrics of the song ‘Red Cape’ by Priscilla Ahn, “Yesterday a hurricane had blown away my long red cape and I feel satisfied,…, I feel sweetly released,…, but I can’t wear my cape ‘cause I would be repeating a mistake, I just gotta let it go, I just gotta let it go…”. It really is this simple. I just have to let it go. This does not mean an action needs to be justified or accepted. It just means that I accept control over what hurts me and what makes me happy. When I put the power back in my own hands, I am able to be in my loving heart space again where I know peace and harmony is what I desire in all my relationships. As soon as I am in a loving space, our animals happily return with wags, swishes and kisses. Because when I am able to let go of an unforgiveness and or an old thought pattern that no longer serves me, I am healing myself, my personal state of being; which positively affects me and my loved ones. The more I heal the better the space I am providing for my loved ones to in turn heal themselves and create the space for more loved ones to heal and so on. This positive ripple just keeps moving out and out creating a very loving space for the whole world.
There may be times, though, when the other person(s) involved may not be in a loving space yet. This can be challenging. But I remind myself of what our animals would do, and I remove myself from the drama. And I always send a boat load of love to the other person(s), doing what I know others have done for me to help me release fear and return to love. Then I do a little happy dance because I did it! I did it! I did it! I made the Big Shift! When I am able to experience even one positive shift, I am making my world better for myself and my loved ones and I am also a part of changing the whole planet for the greater good.
In the fall of 2011, Mike and I moved to a small farm in Central Illinois where we immediately found ourselves rescuing horses. The rescue was not part of our original plan, but we felt the calling while doing a search for a pair of ponies we did plan on caring for on the farm. Since childhood, my entire extended family and I have been horse owners. Mike and I wanted to continue this tradition. Upon searching the internet for a pair of ponies, we were overwhelmed with the number of horses that needed a rescue and/or a home.